While the rest of the Haylers are enjoying Shaykh Abdulbary's class right now, I am stuck at home tending to some plugged milk ducts. I had the gnawing thought yesterday about this happening, since the nursing times were very spaced out yesterday. I could still make it, but it doesn't seem to be 'unplugging' despite my attempts at draining it. May Allah open the blockage and let open the lines of communication that is very much needed. Plus I think my accumulated frustration, annoyance, and stress also played a part in making me extra susceptible to be afflicted with this yet again, for the 4th time in a period of less than two months.
The 'Cleanest Room in the House' I notice, seems to be looking a bit run down. I don't think they're ready for that hamster yet. Tsk, tsk, tsk.
As for gems for this second weekend, I have to say what struck me most was the concept of Barakah. I knew this before, but there is nothing like delivery of a reminder by someone who is effective as Sheykh Abdulbary. Or maybe it's just the whole aura of the surrounding and environment of people gathering together for two full weekends, forgoing their relaxation, to seek knowledge in the deen.
The blessed hours of the early morning contain barakah, even for the non Muslims. Early Muslims used to take advantage of this, and in doing so, they were able to attain so much in so little time. As we near the Day of Judgment, time seems to decrease, and more so because people do not take advantage of these golden hours. When Sheykh Abdulbary talked about this in class, I couldn't help thinking of my laments over how I don't have enough time to do what I needed and wanted to do. No wonder!
From now on, I really have to strive on working on my Circle of Influence than focusing on my Circle of Concern, I guess, even if it means I would miss out on quality time with hubby. For years I have been trying to practice going to bed early, but I have always stayed back again and again because that is the only time I would get to spend time with hubby. I guess he'll have to be the one making the choice now. I resolve not to budge on this one (Oh Allah, please strengthen my resolve, and open his heart and eyes).
And now, back I go to my attempts of draining this blockage and stoppage, and oh, how many meanings those words carry right now. May Allah make me among those who are patient. Ameen.
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Sori tak reply psl TV tu coz I'm bz chasing 2 toddlers while carrying a 7mths baby. Cuma teringat my ex-boss ckp dulu, with kids ni, air dicincang takkan putus so no matter what, they'll always come back to u. But with spouse, just di'ikat' with akad only so WAJIB ada quality time. Tahla, i think mmg kena bnyk sacrifice from both sides. Tu la yg payah tu.
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haah tula yg payah tu :P
It is so true about the early morning, subhanAllah. I must make more of an effort there myself. JazakAllahkhair for the reminder.
wa iyyak. I was just telling the kids stories of barakah during the prophet sallallahu alayhi wasalamm's life...and this barakah on time..subhanallah..we're missing out so much. May Allah bless our effort and in turn make easy for us other affairs in our lives. Ameen.
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